You sucked. Here’s to 2008 and if it’s not any better, someone’s getting sued.

Sorry for the slightly grumpy tone, but New Year is always a strangely melancholic time for me. A chance to reflect on life successes and failures, to work out what you could do better, what you need to do better, and where you’d like your life to take you over the forthcoming twelve months. And when you’ve had a tough year, like I have, this is not a rosy memory-filled process.
It’s been a queer sort of year on so many levels. It started with the death of my Mum’s parents and the subsequent sadness and hard times that this brought to my favourite woman, which seemed to also set the tone for the year in terms of relationships with family and friends. In 2007 I aspired to finish my thesis, and John aspired to change jobs. Neither of those happened. But we did trade in one life in Sheffield for a new life in Leeds – that so wasn’t on the cards on 1 January 2007. And, to be fair, the thesis is ticking along (I can’t see the wood for the trees a lot of the time), and John’s work-life is much more manageable now the insane 3-4 hour commute has been removed. But the move itself brought a load of additional stress, including the most obnoxious, smart-arse buyers known to man, £9k of legal fees (!) and doing some serious damage to our backs when we hired a pickup van to do the move rather than paying a firm (we only weigh 19st between us and we own a lot, lot, lot of stuff). Oh yes, and the floods! The Sheffield floods! Lack of power, flooded carpets and garden, closed roads, no food in the shops. There was seriously no other option than to drink vodka to a) keep warm, b) pass the time whilst sat in the dark, and c) ingest calories as there was no food in the shops! And then towards the end of the year there was the problems with the cats, including the fleas, the tumour and the senility (Sol is having some feline mental health issues at the moment).
There have been some good times. Since we moved, John has been significantly less grumpy, unhappy and stressed, which has made things much better between us. I have discovered several new hobbies including knitting, crochet, blogging, Flickr, Blythe and, most recently, sewing. All of these have brought me a great deal of comfort and satisfaction, and have helped me to realise who and what I want to be. Knowing oneself and having the courage to go with it is a Very Good Thing. And whilst the list of positives is small, getting to the end of 2007 has meant that we can look forward to 2008 and all that it promises to behold. There are going to be some big changes around here over the coming twelve months, so watch this space
I don’t do resolutions. They end up being a stick with which to beat myself rather than a positive aspiration to work towards. Plus I’ve lost the weight and quit the cigs, so there isn’t that much to resolve to do. But if I had to be pushed into making a resolution for 2008, it would be to just have a quiet life and minimise stress wherever possible. Oh, and I must go on holiday with my man this year. In fact, we’re going to spend the afternoon planning our little driving tour of Devon in the spirit of positivity for the forthcoming year.
I’m sorry for this slightly maudlin and bittersweet post; perhaps I should have inserted a warning or disclaimer at the start of this post. But sometimes a bit of navel-gazing introspection can be quite cathartic. I for one am grateful for the opportunity to get these things off my chest, although I may have left you so depressed that you feel somewhat different
But I would like to wish all of you a wonderful New Year, and a healthy, wealthy and happy 2008. May it bring everything that you want and more. Lots of love xxxx